Irritability

I irritability is my largest struggle

From day to day I struggle with the normal things everyone else does. My biggest struggle, however, comes with irritability. I cuss, I snap, I roll my eyes. Nobody has to do anything to even tick me off. It just seems I wake up on the wrong side of the bed every single say. I feel bad about it. How does one overcome irritability? Normally I would do my research and get what the latest therapist, psychologists, and psychiatrists say about this. However, I am coming to you. My blog readers, how do you overcome your struggles with massive amounts of irritability?

The Types Of Toxic People

We all have them in our life. They often cause us undeniable emotional damage to our lives. It is best if we just separate contact with them. Forever, or until they change their ways. There are 8 different arc-types of toxic people.

One Who Overly Criticizes

They suffer from a poor sense of self and self-esteem. For some reason it seems they improve their sense of self by criticizing others. Stay away from them, they make you feel inadequate.

One Who Wastes Our Time

Other individuals may take extreme pleasure and value in your time. These individuals do not. Seeking out attention is what they are good at. Better at nothing rather than wasting our time.

One Who Continually Disappoints

Everyone doesn’t meet expectations now and then. We all disappoint. When it becomes a constant battle uphill with this individual is when it becomes a burden on us.

One Who Constantly Self-Redirects

Self centeredness definitely describes this individual. They redirect conversations serious or not to revolve around themselves. They aren’t much of a giver in a relationship, they tend to be takers.

One Who Is Always Indifferent

We want to feel loved in our relationship. Not just feel tolerated. Those who are indifferent often just become comfortable with us and tolerate our existence. They don’t reciprocate our feelings of love. They just show indifference.

One Who Is Excessively Jealous

Being envious occasionally is a part of life. However, being excessively jealous is not. An individual who is excessively jealous is rarely grateful. They often scorn those for success.

One Who Is Profusely Negative

Negativity is contagious. None of us, mental illness or not, need any more negativity in our lives. This arc-type is very obvious. They are constantly complaining and whining. They are often void of positive energy, unless things are absolutely perfect.

One Who “Plays The Victim Card”

One who holds grudges and often plays the victim card is a tell tale sign of this toxic arc-types. They act very childish at times and know how to manipulate to get their way.

Stay Tuned For The Next Blog

On how to remove toxic people from your life.

Confessions of an Addict

I am a recovering addict. It took me years during my addiction to be able to call myself an addict, and to understand that I had a problem. Addiction is a disease, many will argue against calling it that, but for the sake of this post I am going to call it that. Addiction is a disease that affects many families. The one using isn’t the only one affected. From friends, family, coworkers and everyone you come into contact with, they all are affected. Friends and family are hurt the worst.

I was a liar, cheat, and a thief. Doing what I had to, to get my next fix became a top priority. Never did I stick a needle in my arm, but nor am I better than one who does. We are all equal. All of us know we’re hurting ourselves, we want to cure our addictions, but like me others’ out there do not believe there is a cure for ourselves. I was afflicted with an incurable unsurmountable disease, that God himself could not cure me of and redeem me from. However, I was wrong.

I don’t exactly remember when I started using, but I remember why. Self medication. Suffering from mental illness I could no longer bear the pain of my mental instabilities and suffering. It started with benzodiazepines and sleeping pills, moved to opiate pain killers, and lastly it moved to heroin and fentanyl. Heroin and Fentanyl, who would of thought that straight A student in high-school and college would grow up to be a strung out drug snorting addict.

The anxiety I suffered was overbearing, I feared everything. Death, unacceptance, coming out, driving cars, normal every day fears yes, but I excessively feared them. I couldn’t manage. My Bipolar Depression overwhelmed me, I had no courage to be the man I wanted be, no drive to do the things I enjoyed, I was overly tired, overwhelmed, and agitated. I didn’t think there was help for me with these symptoms. As I found help for my mental health, I began to fight for my right for an “addiction free life”. It’s in quotations because once you are an addict you are always an addict, that is why I always refer to myself as a recovering addict.

Getting clean wasn’t easy. I fell down and stood up many times. Through two treatment centers I went, and I had also overdosed and was hospitalized countless times. I thank the Lord for my forgiving family and friends. I thank parents who helped me get clean and never gave up. I also thank the family who took me on when I needed a place to stay. Getting clean wasn’t easy, and I did it by changing my surroundings. I was out of my comfort zone, with no drug dealers in site, no vehicle to find them, and I knew pretty much no body. A spiritual awakening also happened throughout my mind, soul, and body that told me, “This is not the life God intended for you to live.” To this day I have been clean 3 and a half years*.

There is help out there for everyone who suffers from addiction and their families too. You may think it will not help you, but it can. I have countless friends, countless family members who have gotten clean. Give it a shot, what do you have to lose? Your addiction?

*I still drink on occasion, but always in moderation. I mention this for all those that go to Narcotics Anonymous and Alcoholics Anonymous who prefer to stop all substances whatsoever.